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Meeko... [Nov. 4th, 2004|10:43 am]
Raccoons can be Loving!


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I have to say, I'm not real pleased with the way my mother has taken care of something that I held so dear to me.
No, not just a silly item either. I took Meeko to her house with the prospect of my grandparents didn't want pets and I didn't want to burden them, and I was afraid for his life and did not want to bring him here. (I moved to Houston for college) So I sent him to my mother's, where she promised he would be well fed and happy.

I remember how much he cried the morning I took him, and that sad look on his face when he stared out the window as I left him. I promised him I would come back. I held him, kissed him, and promised. I had even begun to consider bringing him back with me when I go home for Christmas.

How ironically, that the reason I didn't bring him here, is now the reason I'll never see him again. He was killed by a car. Identified by his little snowman collar that he so often protested wearing, with his little shiny tags that he loved to play with. He was hit by a car two blocks from my mom's house after escaping through the window.

So now I have to live with this feeling that the last thing he must have felt about me was that I abanoned him and that I didn't love him. He must have been so angry with me for leaving him there like that, and not coming back for him. Now I'll never see that little masked face or hear that little chattering happiness ever again.

If anyone says any shit about how it's just a 'pet' I will murder you. Meeko was not a pet. Meeko was probably the closed thing to a baby I'll ever have. He knew I cared about him, and he showerd me with coonie kisses and little love bites. The last thing I saw him do was scream for me when I walked out the door.

I loved him so much, and he probably feels like I just left him.

[User Picture]From: pawsie
2004-11-04 08:51 am (UTC)
i know that must hurt..... i'm sorry for your lost =/.. i would be crush too.
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[User Picture]From: coongt
2004-11-04 09:00 am (UTC)
I'm sorry :(

Losing a love one is never easy.. but do your best to keep his memory alive in your heart.
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From: lilvalleydoll
2004-11-04 09:31 am (UTC)
I know how you feel.

I left Spice for the summer so I could work in Florida, it was only two months, but I'd already been away the whole year for school, so it really sucked, but I was going to go to school at home in the fall, so I would be able to spend more time with him.

A week before I came home he got sick.

The day before I came home he died.

I felt so bad, because I know he thought I just left him and didn't love him anymore, and he died alone, thinking that I didn't care about him anymore.

And Spice was so much more then a pet, he was the best thing that ever happened to me.
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[User Picture]From: shunhuggedme
2004-11-04 03:04 pm (UTC)
thank you guys for being so nice...

i mean.. i don't know .. anything i feel so... hurt.

I have this horrible pain that used to be filled with happiness. Everytime I thought of him I would smile and think of when I would get to see him for Christmas, and now when I think of him, I smile, then start to cry because I know I will never see him again.

I just feel so terrible.. I can't even be there to bury him. i left him, thinking the traffic here would be sure to kill him (turns out the suburb where i live is actually relaly small)... and then I was going to get him on Christmas break when I went home for the holidays and bring him here with me .. becuase I was missing him so much.

I was showing his picture around school and talking about how wonderful he is, my fiancee' was looking forward to meeting him...

i'm walkng around with a suffed coonie .....i feel so lost now.
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From: lilvalleydoll
2004-11-04 07:57 pm (UTC)
Yeah I still totally know what you mean. I know it just fucking sux, but it will get easier. It's still gonna suck, cuz I still just wanna go get Spice and play around with him, and I'm not saying you'll get over him, but it will get easier. Just try and remember the good things, to be cliche.
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From: furrysantuary
2004-11-04 04:35 pm (UTC)
*tears* *hugs you*
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[User Picture]From: pyroro
2004-11-04 06:13 pm (UTC)
*snugs* im so sorry to hear of your loss, but Im sure Meeko knows how much you love and care for him and knows you were trying to do whats best for him. He will be watching you and be with you to bring the smiles from your memories.
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From: mishaps
2004-11-05 02:00 pm (UTC)
I don't know you but I feel your pain. A few months ago my cat died unexpectedly from a brain tumour. No one saw it coming, it happened basically overnight. By the time that we had to put her down she was hooked up to at least 3 machines.
she was honestly my little baby. I spoiled her, cuddled her all the time and worried about her when she didn't come when I called her. We had a special bond that only people like me and you can understand. Not having her around hurts so much.

I am sorry for your loss. I don't think that you should focus on the bad though, celebrate his life and he will know and understand what happened.

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[User Picture]From: kiwitrip
2004-11-10 03:29 pm (UTC)
*hugs* I am so sorry for your loss sweetheart. Coonies are members of our family more so than any other pet could be. They seem to have a deeper understanding of us than any other animale (I know, I have many)

I am sorry this is a late reply too, My life has been topsy turvy and I havent checked any of my LJ's in forever. I will late a candle for your little baby Meeko tonight.
Remember that he knew you loved him and he had a safe, warm, loving and happy home. That is more than most any coonie gets in his whole lifetime.
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[User Picture]From: vonne
2005-05-09 03:32 am (UTC)
I am so so sorry for you
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